Every part of marriage made Kasey want to crawl into a hole and never come out. The idea of it, creeping into her mind, was enough to make her pull back from any progress she had made in her relationships. The act of actually speaking about marriage made once made her break up with someone. Marriage was not something she had ever pictured.
Growing up, Kasey witnessed a lot of bad relationships. Her earliest memory of her parents constantly fighting was when she was three years old. They had been shouting all day, eventually escalating to them throwing things, which then led to Kasey getting scratched on the face with a broken piece of a vase that was carelessly thrown in her direction. She was sent to the hospital with six stitches on her cheek. Things between her parents just got worse from there, leaving Kasey to fend for herself when it came to dinner, getting places, even at parent teacher conferences she had to be there to be the buffer for her parents arguing. But they never got a divorce.
Kasey’s idea of marriage, or rather what she was taught by school, was loving someone unconditionally, letting them in, and having them be your best friend. But the examples she was shown were very different. She was shown that marriage was being with someone because you felt like you had to be, not because there was actual feelings or love involved. She was shown that staying together didn’t have anything to do with feelings, but rather the people around you. Kasey influenced her parents choice to stay together simply because Kasey was around. They didn’t directly treat her badly, but then never talked to Kasey about important things. They heard her cries at night, one time her mother even walked in on Kasey sobbing to say goodnight, and she just looked at her then walked back out. Kaseu never wanted her child to feel like the way she did growing up. No one deserved it. And the solution to keep that from happening was to not get married.
But then she met Jack.
When she met him, Kasey knew he was going to be trouble for her. Not because he was rude or abusive, but because he wasn’t any of those things. He was the perfect picture of everything she wanted. He was generous, kind, humorous, honest, everything she needed. But she knew he needed more. Kasey knew he wanted more.
She had talked about her fears about marriage one time, after an argument about her not wanting to take things to the next level, when everything came pouring out. Kasey told him everything. He understood all of it, and he never discussed the topic of marriage again. He was so in love with her that it didn’t matter what he wanted, he just wanted to make her happy. And she hated herself for it. Kasey didn’t want him compromising what he wants just because he loved her.
They had been together for almost three years, and those three years were the best of their life. Jack made Kasey feel loved, he let her in as did she, and he was her best friend. He was what she was taught to believe marriage was about. And she was realizing that.
Kasey had begun to think about the idea of marrying JAck one night while he was sleeping soundly next to you. She watched his chest rise and fall, thinking that she could spend the rest of her life like this. But not just as his longtime girlfriend, but as his partner.
Kasey kept her feelings to herself until a couple weeks later when her best friend called her asking about Kasey’s current love affair.
“So, how is everything between you two? I hope you haven’t run away yet,” Skye said.
“Actually, things have been going extremely well,” Kasey spoke.
“Has anything changed? Still against marriage?” she asked timidly.
“I’ve been thinking about it, actually.”
“What! Oh my god you want to marry him!” Skye shouted.
“Would you relax, I’ve just had a change of heart.”
“Kasey, this is huge! You’ve been blocking out even the idea of marriage since you were ten! Oh my god, this is amazing!”
“Skye, calm down. Seriously, just because I want to marry Jack doesn’t mean he will propose. I mean I haven’t even told him about it, if I even will,” Kasey explained.
“Well, I’m betting that he is going to propose, even if you don’t tell him. Jack has a sixth sense about these things, you know.”
“I know. Okay I have to go, I’ll talk to you later.”
“Maybe you’ll be engaged when we speak next,” she said.
“Oh, shut up.”
Kasey was excited that she had finally admitted she wanted a marriage with Jack. She didn’t know how to tell Jack that she wanted to marry him, seeing as Kasey hadn’t spoken about the topic since that one fight. Kasey was scared for some reason. But little did she know that she didn’t have to tell him, seeing as Jack heard her entire conversation. He smiled as Kasey said that she wanted to marry him. It was one of the best things he had heard her perfect lips that he loved so much speak. He knew Kasey, and knew that she probably wouldn’t tell him, so he took matters into his own hands.
About two months after Kasey’s conversation with Skye, Jack had planned the proposal. Everything was perfect. He just had to get Kasey back home. She was at work all day, so getting her out of the house wasn’t an issue, but getting her back in was. Kasey had a tendency to be late, which wasn’t an issue, usually. But this was a little more important than being late to a party.
Kasey arrived home 30 minutes after she said that she would, one of her personal bests. She opened up the door to her home and dropped everything while gasping. The walkway leading into the living room was lined with candles and rose petals were scattered on the floor. At the end of the trail stood the love of her life, Jack.
“Hello, love. Always late, no matter what,” he said smirking.
“What’s all this for?” Kasey asked timidly.
“I overheard your conversation about wanting to marry me a couple months ago, so I thought I would care for your needs,” he explained.
He hadn’t even done anything yet, but Kasey had already started crying.
“Since the moment that we met, I’ve always known that I was going to spend a long time knowing and loving you. Even when you told me you didn’t want to get married, I still knew that I was going to spend my life with you. We’ve come a long way since we met and I hope that you have continued to want to marry me, because I believe we will do incredible things together. So, Kasey, will you marry me?” Jack asked, crying himself.
Kasey covered her mouth to keep a happy sob from escaping, shaking her head violently yes. Jack got up off of his knee and kissed her harshly, trying to pour every emotion he had into the kiss. He slipped the ring onto her finger and smiled into the kiss.
“Are you sure? I don’t want you to feel like you have to just for me-” he began, before Kasey quickly interrupted him with a kiss.
“Jack, I have never been more sure of anything in my life. I was scared of what could happen in marriage, but you have made me realize that you would never treat me badly, never hurt me, and us being married is going to be a beautiful thing. I love you, and can’t wait to see what life brings us and where it takes us next,” she finished with a kiss.
Kasey may have not had the best examples of marriage in her life, but Jack made marriage look like something that she could do. And she was glad that she was taking the plunge with Jack.