You never know what you have until you don’t have it anymore. I lost everything in that accident. I never knew I had so many memories attached to such little things. Memories. Memories stick to things like glue but, a simple mistake can ruin them. Why did I make that one mistake?
How do you fix something that’s beyond repair. I made one small mistake that hurt a lot of people and killed someone I loved. I made it out with a couple of cuts but someone never came out alive. I lost so many important things because of one mistake.
If I wasn’t distracted this wouldn’t have happened. If only I paid more attention. If only I didn’t have my phone distracting me. If. The one word we use when we screw up. When we make a mistake. One mistake.
Phones can save lives but, also take them away from us. They can help and hurt us. We need to learn to take our eyes off a screen and learn to appreciate what’s around us. We need to learn to breathe in the fresh air and feel the coolness of the breeze. We need to pay attention to things that aren’t on a screen. Instead of looking at a flower online, go outside a look at one there,
I was warned. I knew what I was doing was wrong but, I did it anyways. You get told by your parents to do this and don’t do this and if you do the wrong thing there will be consequences. They were teaching us a life lesson that we never wanted to learn but, had to anyways. I knew I shouldn’t have been on my phone but, I was on it anyways. I had to face my consequence but, so did other people.
You never realize what your actions can do until something bad happens. One person can cause you to do something that will ruin other people’s lives. One decision can change your life forever. It could be a good change or it can be the worst thing that could ever happen.
Pain is all I ever feel since the mistake I made. You hear people say ‘Pain loves company’ and you think they are just overreacting but the truth is, it really does love company. Pain controls my life now. I can’t do anything without it reminding me of the one mistake I made. Because of that mistake other people are being controlled by pain. I caused this pain and I can’t make it any better.
People I love can’t look at me without being reminded that I caused them a pain that will never go away. A pain that with be there to haunt them for the rest of their lives. That one mistake I made destroyed people. People that I love and care for. People who love and care for me.
Some people realized it was a mistake and are learning to fight the pain little by little everyday but others, others don’t care that it was a mistake. They don’t care for me anymore. They don’t want to care for me anymore. They don’t want to forgive me. They can’t forgive me.
Forgiveness is something you have to learn throughout time but, some people don’t learn how to forgive. They build a wall that is almost always impossible to break down. You want them to forgive but, the more you push them to, the stronger the wall becomes. You have to make the right moves and do the right things for the wall to start to break down but, one mistake and the wall gets stronger than it was before.
I know that no one is perfect and I know I wasn’t the best daughter but, I never knew that I was this imperfect. I know everyone has their flaws but, apparently everything I am is a flaw. I can’t do anything right. I’m failing all of my classes and can’t focus on anything. I’m a terrible friend, sister and, the absolute worst daughter the world has ever created.
Everyone says things happen for a reason but, I could have learned my lesson a different way. I never wanted this to happen. I can’t sleep because of what happened. Why did I have to learn my lesson this way. Why was the death of someone I love the consequence to my action. Why did I make this mistake.
The story went all over the news. Every time I go out in public everyone stares and whispers. Children run up to me recording and say rude things and bring up my past. My mistake has destroyed my life forever. Nothing will ever be the same again.
I keep bringing up this one mistake but, I haven’t told you what the mistake was so here we go. Hi, my name is Allison Parker and I was recently in a major car wreck that killed my mother. Here is how it happened.
I just got my license and wanted to take my mom out to eat as a thank you. While we were on our way to our favorite restaurant I heard my phone ding. My mother told me that I shouldn’t answer it and that I should wait until a red light. I was too impatient and looked anyways. It was a text from a boy I liked.
While I was reading the text I blew a red light and got t-boned. I got hit on the passenger side. Where my mother was sitting. The impact was so big it caused my mother to hit the window hard enough to send her into a coma.
She wasn’t strong enough and had too many internal bleeds. She died while she was still in her coma. I never got to say goodbye. It was all my fault. I didn’t have to read that text. It wasn’t important. If I didn’t look at that text she never would have died. If I never looked at that text my life would be normal and I would have my family back. If I never looked at that text I wouldn’t I have to be telling you this.
I made one mistake that ruined so many lives. I can’t ever forgive myself for what I did and I don’t expect anyone to forgive for what I did. It was all because of some stupid text that I could have looked at later but, I didn’t. Instead I chose to look at the text. I made a mistake that I will never make again.
Please avoid looking at your phone while driving. This could happen to you. Please stay safe while driving. Thank you.