Speaker hates Cecelia
Cecelia: latin name meaning Blind
she’s a milky skinned girl with sharp bones
and a spine you can run fingers down to create
hollow music. but she hides those stalagmites, uses a
tattoo. black ink, chinese words. speaker has
no idea what it means. it’s ugly.
she has concave cheeks and eyes and a cavern between
the bones of her neck. crater-faced, dusty grey
with a dark side. speaker feels cold when she
passes by. wonders if she would shatter
her hair hangs like a ferret over her shoulder and
the rest falls down her back in frayed white ropes
with knots and tangles and it smells. dreadlocked.
dead ends. on top, unruly baby hairs. speaker wants to
pluck them out one by one.
speaker wants to count the bones on her spine. would
hit each with a fist until it pops back under the skin.
until the skin is smooth. a heavenly body, faultless in complexion.
speaker dreams of taking a black marker and filling in
the rest of her back. filling in her cheeks and eyes and neck.
uniform, neat, clean. speaker speaks chinese now. would
brand 听 on each thin finger with a needle. careful to
avoid the chalky bones.
speaker sees the bodies that turn to her as to a warm fire
in a cold winter that would engulf her fingers in silky onyx.
speaker hears her bones plead like the crackle of a
burning log when she walks. barefoot. delicate. i’m here, crack.
look at me. snap.