See the insignia and my heart starts beating

I’m nervous, stay aware of it creeping

Never did anything to me, yet there’s a stutter in my breathing

There’s three of us out here and all of us are squeezing

Our hands we can already see each other bleeding

Cause we’re young and there’s a police officer sneaking

Already see the bullets put us down like we’re sleeping

Forevermore, open casket, you see my anxiety’s been feeding

Take a step back, check, breathe

I’m alive, thank God, I’m free

Cause it’s gone so now I can see

The only thing to be afraid of is me

You make it so hard for me to write these things

Tellin’ me I shouldn’t have the right to dream

Make me suffer, push me to hold onto things

Forget the dreams, I just wanna hold onto sleep

Forget the sleep, I just wanna rest these tired knees

I’ve got this ache, my chest feels like it’s full of bees

Just want to destroy all these fuckin’ anxieties

But the second I throw ‘em out you’re behind the scenes

Puttin ‘em back, locking the door, throwin’ away the keys

Cause you’re in charge so you say “push it down”, keep it inside of me

Take a step back, check, breathe

Still alive, thank God, I’m free

Cause it’s gone so now I can see

The only thing I’m afraid of is me

Been trying to hold it inside and keep a smile

Success, it’s gone, guess it works for a while

But then it’s back and my lungs run a mile

Heart’s tryin’ to escape, can’t take it, this feeling’s vile

My tongue starts to get used to the taste of bile

My fingers tap when my anxieties get idle

My mind plays distractions, tries to call them vital

But there’s no escape from myself, want the proof, just check the title

Take a step back, check, breathe

Still alive, thank God, I’m still me

Might just be a kid, screwin’ back on the lid

But this world is so big, it’s not just me