always drawing circles.
papers filling up folders. crammed in desk drawers.
it calms the nerves. pen on paper, over and over again.
it keeps the bad thoughts out. violent ones. scary ones.
one, five, eight. ten, thirteen, fifteen.
keep counting. please keep counting.
don't let those thoughts come back, because if they do i might explode.
and if i explode, people will look.
the only thing left is to drown them out with the dull sound of pen against paper.
always drawing circles.