the thunder growls in your ears
and lightning dances in your eyes
close your eyes and breathe
in out, one two, inhale exhale
the sky snarls, but don’t be afraid
wild things only hurt you if you hurt them first
let yourself breathe
in out, three four, inhale exhale
let the rain clear your head
pitter patter, pitter patter
forget all the everyday burdens
just breathe
in out, five six, inhale exhale
let the lightning erase your mind
blinding white bursts behind your eyes
forget the worries creeping up on you
just breathe
in out, seven eight, inhale exhale
let the thunder fill your ears
bang bang bang
forget all you have to do today tomorrow
next week next year, let them come as they will
in out, nine ten, inhale exhale
ten nine eight seven six five four three two one
scream
scream until you can’t hear the thunder anymore
scream until you lose yourself
scream until you find yourself underneath all the masks
scream
until you’ve tamed the storm
If I were the wind:
I’d run - flee from the ground,
whisper mischievously in passenger's hair,
blow birds about the sky and toss kites
high in the sky.
If I were a tree:
I’d adorn my hair with crowns
made from garlands of a robin’s nest.
Stand boldly as the cheeky winds rustle me,
and lift my leafy arms
high in the sky.
If I were a flower:
I’d bloom tenaciously like rainbow silk
where dreams can be weaved from.
I’d bask in the sunlight filtering through the lattice of tree leaves
as I face my silky petals
high in the sky.
If I were a butterfly:
I’d dance in a whirl of colour, swimming
in the air, curling in the sweetest of swirls.
I’d charm rose petals with butterfly kisses
as I, with fluttering wings, fly
high in the sky.
If I were the sun:
I’d rise, pouring my cascades of amber and honey rays
into the earth like a pot of molten lava.
I’d caress my children with scintillating golden lights
while hanging, like crystal orbs
high in the sky.
But I am me. The only thing I can do
is frolic with the wind. . .
lean on the proud trees. . .
praise the dancing flowers. . .
relish the velvety touch of a butterfly’s kisses,
Or
I could look -
look very hard and dear,
with my fondly squinted eyes
high in the sky.
To a whole new world, the light of my first Spring,
I wake up from my cozy, warm den of ten months,
having fallen asleep to my mother’s steady heartbeat and peaceful breath
Alongside the blossoming blooms, I unlatched my petals.
The breeze swept my baby face,
carrying a fresh and happy beginning
Look up there! A butterfly!
My little legs pumping as fast as a twirling pinwheel under the sky
Unburdened, carefree, with a big world waiting for a child’s wide eye
Free like the wings of chirping birds, discoveries hiding around every bend,
the wind greeting me like an old friend
The world is growing, but shrinking at the same time,
as I mature along with the fiery leaves in the air mime
Day and night are perfectly split in the equinox,
The charm of Autumn is in its balance
My constraints and struggles,
my freedom and snuggles
I found improper is not only limited to fractions,
but I also found Prime is rife,
both in numbers and in the moments of life
I’m interested in the subjects I learn at school, covering the nucleus, cytoplasm,and photosynthesis,
but I still like Harry Potter, apple pie, and pumpkins
Flakes dancing outside halcyon winters by the fireplace,
I wonder what awaits me under this pure wonderland maze
Riding my sleds past fairy tales of chimneys and the North Pole,
dreaming beyond hot chocolate with marshmallow
Skiing down the huge surge of change
Oh, how far I will be
How far I will go
Over the hills and mountains of snow
I imagine a glowing room, down a rustic street.
The old street is not appealing, though it gives me a cozy feeling.
There is dirt that scatters across the street.
I lay down in the dirt, imagining a forest sprouting ahead
The forest leads me through a path.
Hope fills my heart. I reach my hand out.
But there is nothing.
So I sit back down, and travel back to the street.
Looking towards the glowing room.
I feel uneasy and dangerous, threatened by the forest.
But the glowing room gives me comfort.
Nudging me to walk towards it.
I don't move, but the glowing room spreads and surrounds me, taking me in.
Warm, cozy and safe
Are the thoughts that come to my mind.
And then the word finally appears,
Home.
The faint, darkish hues
arise from the desolation, darkness, of my mind.
Blotches of black ink,
disoriented, lifeless
etchings on crude surfaces of paper.
Dissonant chords written by the clearly absent-minded composer.
The hues darken, mixing with complementary colors--
Paints, pastels, a pastorale playing in the distance.
A painting is drawn, a story.
The lethargy lost from my face
Chord progressions of the heavens sing to me!
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Allegro Inquieto: Restlessness, Nervous.
The winter foliage crushes,
disintegrates into shards of glass.
Branches of trees
drown under the snow’s tides.
Men’s muttered voices are
devoured by snow’s symphony.
A cacophony of guns and laughter in the distance,
Staccato, staccato, crescendo! The short steps of the devil’s march
approach.
The orchestra’s reverberations moan,
Weary with fatigue and disease.
Hanging on the loose thread of life,
they grab the splintering stocks of their rifles.
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Doloroso: Sorrow.
The fermata continues, a sedentary silence.
It is all but a bleak, black
night that shadows over the white snow.
His companions suffer from insomnia’s
laughter and torture.
They scream when the branches break,
maybe the footsteps of the animals, in the far distance.
His eyes twitch,
the few droplets beneath his eyelids transcending to an accelerando
of tears.
Recollection of his angel’s bosom
veneering his body.
The legato and smooth welcome by warmth and love,
Absent in the depths of ill trees.
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Accelerando Con Agitato: Accelerating with Agitation
They grab the rifles under the purple sky,
Night is frail, his arms are crushed against
sunrise’s grasp.
MARCATISSIMO! The accented sound of bullets through the air,
ricocheting from one
man to the other,
The snow’s white flesh
covered with bloody phlegm.
The jarring chords, the screaming cries of his fellow men.
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Moderato con dolore: Moderately, with Sadness.
He is all but paper
skin sagging over loose, copper wires.
His cracked lips quiver to make a sound.
He drags his mutilated, bone-protruding leg.
Marcatissimo. Marcatissimo. Marcatissimo.
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Blotches of black print on the surfaces of paper.
Discordant sounds from the instrument that creaks with weariness.
No, they are groups of notes and phrases,
like beautiful syntax within a poem.
Soulful chords.
Fermata. Legato. Accelerando. Marcatissimo. Staccato.
written with heavy weights by the composer.
The beginning chords of Allegro Inquieto,
I think of him
the cacophony of guns and laughter in the distance.
Cruel pity--
his soul filled with fearsome frustration--
The beauty of dissonance.
A trio of friends, hungry for adventure,
wander into a cavern, unbeknownst to others.
Sealing runes amass, cover the walls,
glowing an array of colors, lighting up the halls.
Eyes wide with excitement, a curious mage pries the stone.
A sudden rumble emits, and darkness unfolds.
At the end of the cavern, a lapis lazuli lagoon sits,
the once still water, now pulsating, it splits.
Waves crashing, a great sea serpent emerges, its head adorned with glittery jewels.
Scars mark it’s reflective turquoise scales, proudly marking its many duels.
The serpentine roars a mighty roar, the young adventurers shaken to their bones.
Echoing throughout the chambers, vibrations crack the walls of stone.
The leader of the jolly group, a swordsman clad with armor,
shakes of the unnerving fear and regains his posture.
He unsheathes his holy sword, a shining light in the dark,
and points it unwaveringly at the monster, eyes hardened, making their mark.
His magician friend besides him and cleric to the left,
hold up their enchanted staffs, prepared to defend.
Against the serpent ahead of them, glowing yellow slits,
it launches towards them, teeth made to rip.
The holy knight crosses his sword, sparks flying through the musty air.
Bits of light soaring, through the darkness, they tear.
Eyes filled with determination, the group ascends,
SLASH! a linear cut causes the serpent’s end.
Heaving and panting, the young heroes prevail,
The glorious serpentine, it’s attacks to no avail,
Our youthful adventurers cut the beast’s head,
rejoicing finally at the serpent’s death.
A trio of friends hungry for adventure,
exit a cavern unbeknownst to others.
Sealing runes shattered, the once lit cave gone,
the leftover serpent body, now a predator to none.
It is my first time enveloped in branches.
Vines trickle up my ankle, grasping each pore for survival,
Veneering my layer of skin
Parasitic premonitions penetrated placid phantasmagoria
The scalding clash of two textures- friction fanning fire
To onlookers, detritus- a combustible deathbed- but you
Disguise the forest floor a divine dream
Your embrace euthanizes animalistic attributes
Hypnotized by the pendulum of your stare,
I don’t recognize Reality running with an axe
Ready to hew straight down the middle for kindling use
And thus we separate
I, the left half stacked in a storeroom
You, the right half ablaze with licks of flame exploring the crevices of your bark
An open viewing of my lover’s cremation decorated with toasted marshmallows
And squealing toddlers unfazed by their murderous act
Please, burn me too
But fireplaces now obsolete and outdoor fires a forced activity to distract kids from their iPhones
I’m hidden beneath my fellow stacks left forgotten
And all I can remember is my first time enveloped in branches
I am wide awake,
Yet I am asleep.
Though the day is still bright,
Into dreams I seep.
Great fancies I make.
So Dreamer, dream on!
Dreams are hopeful,
Colorful creations;
Beautiful and much more;
Imaginations
That calm the stressful.
So Dreamer, dream on!
God has a reason
For why we have these.
He gave them to us, so
We chase them and seize
The chance to praise Him.
So Dreamer, dream on!
What I mean is this:
Each dream is a chance
To spread God’s love about.
So Dreamer, dream on!
In my head I'm a cowboy,
A real western gunslinger;
Cool hat and leather boots
With a taste for Bauhaus architecture and fine liquor.
I ride in like I ride out;
Unknown yet adored,
Adored yet unloved;
Bad joke personified;
Long drags of a cigarette,
Bona fide Bogart
Born on the back of a brumby,
My one friend and trusty steed;
Companion in my race against time;
And just as I,
pursued by curses of lovers left behind–
Always close,
But not quite caught up.
A perfume and bourbon sort of aura
Feral and wild and unruly,
And emotional too, maddened by love;
But not quite yet.
Now I'm just a cowboy,
A real western gunslinger;
Resting by the waterpost,
Pretending not to notice you pretending not to look at me
Looking at you just the same
Ready to start begging to kiss your shadow
Or ready to start wanting to–
Hours pass like seconds and
Your voice is exotic,
Your words onomatopoeias
For bird calls, Für Elise in early morning;
From a radio, so a bit of static–
A childhood spent in timid wonder;
I open my mouth,
Bold to your italic,
You ask if I've ever been to Paris,
Mention the roll of my r's;
I'm not French I just have a speech impediment
But that's cooler so I suppose no ma'am, but my dad has;
Bone sewer.
Tip of the hat and I'm gone,
Riding out into the night,
A cigarette from the corner of my mouth–
A promise going up into smoke.
Years later I'll remember this
As I wander through Moscow,
And every place of worship it's got to offer;
Searching for a god in a snowstorm,
Until I find the perfect garden
To lay down and die in.
In my head I'm a cowboy,
A real western gunslinger;
Cool hat and leather boots,
And enough pretentiousness for two.
But my body's in bed,
Eyes locked to the ceiling;
I've really got to stop ghosting people.
Yellow flowers turn to white cotton
before the return of the new moon,
A dandelion’s time is different from people’s.
To a mayfly
living life busily,
A day feels eternal.
And how to a luna moth,
Summer never seems to end.
To a lost child,
A day can go without end,
Time passing ever so slowly.
The seasons change seven times in a single moment
for the man searching,
His time passing faster.